The podcaster said it was “really difficult” to see the difference between her baby girl and her baby boy, who Kailyn is calling “Baby A” for now until she’s ready to publicly reveal the twins’ names.

“I’m seeing he’s in the NICU for some of the same reasons, but also he’s taking a bottle,” she recalled, “and he’s having no issue with that.”

Eventually, Baby A was released from the hospital. However, with his twin sister still in the NICU, Kailyn said it became more challenging to visit Baby B while also spending time with her other kids—including sons Isaac, 14, with ex Jo Rivera; Lincoln, 10, with ex Javi Marroquin; Lux, 6, and Creed, 3, with ex Chris Lopez; and baby Rio, with Elijah.

“It was an hour drive there and back and when I was there, I was there for hours,” she recalled, adding that what made the situation more overwhelming was that Elijah “couldn’t be there with me in the NICU when I went.”

As Kailyn put it, “She was away from her twin; we were away from her. When we were home, we still couldn’t process it because there was so much going on here.”

And while Baby B has since been discharged from the NICU as well, Kailyn admitted she still has worries about the long term effects the experience had on the twins.

“I’m still very much concerned about so many things,” she confessed. “I get worried that the NICU stay, what if it ruined their bond or put a strain on it. I’m trying to re-magnetize them to get them back to where they were.”

For a complete look at Kailyn’s family, keep reading.